Today at work I said good morning to one of my co-workers.  She works in the cafeteria.  I was getting the children's sheets from the dryer and once I was heading off I told her to have a good weekend.  She said the same to me plus to go have fun.  "You're so young, you should go dancing and have a boyfriend."  I kind of smiled at her and said "We'll see."  What's so funny is that she is not alone.  There are a few people that I know who wonder if I will be in a relationship.  My excuse to them is that I don't have time for one because I'm committed to my studies.  I've been working in the mornings and going to school at night.  Now that summer is here I really don't have any excuses.  But on the other hand I'm not sure what I want.  Do I want to continue being single and have fun with my friends or be with a good guy?

I think the reason why I stayed away from relationships is because... well yeah 1) I was sick  2) I was trying to get better  3) Getting my life on track and 4) I've seen some relationships that weren't at their best.  I've notice that I made alot of excuses to stay away and I never really gave relationships a chance.  I think I was scared at what will happen if I was in a long-term relationship.  Honestly when I'm ready that's when a relationship will happen.  Relationship will gradually come and when that moment is here I know I will be ok.

The other day my brother and I were talking and he said most likely I will be with someone who's weak.  I thought that was sad.  He said, "I see you as the dominated person in the relationship and the guy as the lower status."  For references I perfer someone who's equal to me.  Who can handle my family, lol j/k.  I have a big family and if the guy is cool with that, then that's fine.  Of course I'm daddy's little girl, but I'm also his only girl so....lol.  Actually my dad knows that I'm a strong person and I won't be guilable to what guys say plus I grew up with brothers so I always had to defend for myself.  They are also football and baseball fans.  And as you can see I like to watch wrestling, I still watch it every now and then.  I think it would be cool if I'm with someone who's similar to me.  Someone who's mix like me I'm native-spanish-italian with english/irish from my father's side of the family.  We're very different and a handful at times but they are my family and they supported me through alot.  They were there when I couldn't breathe, they were there when I couldn't walk, they were there when I was weak.  They gave me strength so I could live... maybe the reason why I never ended up in a relationship is because I want them to be proud of me.  I want them to know they kept me strong so I can succeed in life.  It's probably a bit corny but it's true.