My Celtic Cross Reading

Your Spread

Higher Power     Recent Past Situation Self Challenges/ Opportunities Near Future     Foundation     Long-term Potential Advice Allies Blocks & Inhibitions

Your Notes

Your Interpretations

Self: The Magician © Tarot.com POSITIONAL (MAIN) MEANING You have a talent for creating something from nothing. The card in the Self position reveals aspects of how you perceive yourself right now. The Magus symbolizes imagination, creativity and an inventive nature. Your unique intelligence and talent for clever experimentation is a valuable asset. The Magus serves as a catalyst, an agent of change. His influence is a fresh breeze blowing through any situation. So be playful, and stay open. Don't limit yourself, the possibilities are endless. Try things, see what happens and correct your course as you go. Tease open the minds of those who are watching to see what you will do. Situation: The World © Tarot.com POSITIONAL (MAIN) MEANING You drew your arrow and hit your target with the style of a skillful archer. The card that lands in the Situation position refers to social or circumstantial factors which could be affecting your life at this time. When the World is in this position, you appear to be approaching circumstances that previously existed only in your imagination. After years of effort and struggle, matters may seem absurdly easy now. Your ambition, inspiration and perseverance have taken you toward your desired outcome. Now you are zeroing in on the bull's eye, having explored the territory and brought yourself to its center. Pause for a while and enjoy this moment. Recognize that you have completed what you set out to achieve. You are the person you wanted to be in the presence of the company you wanted to keep. You now inhabit what used to be a dream. Challenges/ Opportunities: Three of Wands © Tarot.com POSITIONAL (MAIN) MEANING Be ready to act on what you instinctively know is a good opportunity. The card that lands in the Challenges/Opportunities position refers to ways that you can turn obstacles into stepping stones. The Three of Wands in this position indicates that your instincts and impulses may be aroused by new trends and possibilities. Take a good look at the tide coming in and be ready to take advantage of its power to take your ships out to sea. Act on these changes -- you are the right person at the right time. If you disregard this opportunity you will regret it later. Foundation: Eight of Cups © Tarot.com POSITIONAL (MAIN) MEANING When you assert inner wisdom and strength, you will not repeat patterns of victimization. The card in the Foundation position points to influences from your personal history, your roots and background. The Eight of Cups in this position suggests that lack of protection or boundaries has caused you to be wounded in the past. Setting aside the question of who is guilty and how scores might be settled, ask yourself if you are still expecting the worst. Do you continue to be passive, waiting for the ax to fall, or for another's actions to determine your fate? To the extent that your boundaries can still be violated, you continue to collude with victimizers, losing power and self-esteem. Summon your courage to graduate from a chronically defensive posture in order to stop attracting traumatic experiences. Recent Past: Ten of Cups © Tarot.com POSITIONAL (MAIN) MEANING Something that used to hurt you and hold you back has been healed; you have arrived at a new level. The card in the Recent Past position refers to events that are just departing, recently influential but now diminishing in power. With the Ten of Cups in your recent past, you have just completed an extended exercise of self-discipline, intense focus and cooperative teamwork. These labors have brought you to a new level of self-esteem, usefulness and enthusiastic service in your life. Even when you are feeling down, you no longer slide back into the same ruts. Challenges no longer deter you -- you don't despair or feel abandoned. Instead, you know how to refill your cup from the inside and let it overflow, becoming an inspiration for others. Having seen positive results and the impact of your efforts, you can now hold yourself in higher esteem. Take your advancement to heart. With it you can operate from a stronger position of strength and creativity than you could before. Higher Power: Nine of Cups © Tarot.com POSITIONAL (MAIN) MEANING

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POSITIONAL (MAIN) MEANING
You know there is a benevolent presence in the universe that blesses you.

The card in the Higher Power position reflects the broader perspective and influence of your conscience, Guardian Angel, inner wisdom.

The Nine of Cups in this position points to great blessings. Because your ego has remained pliant and teachable, your Higher Self has arranged abundant rewards for you. Although you are clever and creative, in your heart of hearts you know that divine providence and synchronicity have had a lot to do with whatever success you have achieved.

Be grateful to a Higher Power; acknowledge that you never could have accomplished anything worthwhile without its backing. Other awakenings may come as well: that you are not alone, that you are being protected, that the Greater Whole supports your endeavors. When you want what is best for everyone, spiritual forces arrange what is best for you. That may seem illogical to some, but when you have experienced it, a tremendous amount of fearful anxiety goes away. You can directly acknowledge the light that shines upon you from on high. The evidence lies right here in this experience.

Near Future: Two of Cups

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POSITIONAL (MAIN) MEANING
A relationship is blooming. Trust the process and open with it.

The card in the Near Future position indicates which way the wind is blowing with regard to your situation. If you follow the Advice card, however, you can improve on or neutralize tendencies.

With the Two of Cups in this position, a newly emerging or existing friendship can develop into something more. You may feel as if you want to know this person or situation better and better. This optimistically placed card encourages you to trust and let yourself open up. It is telling you to go for it -- why hold back? One of the strongest human drives is to relate more deeply, more honestly and with fuller consciousness.

As long as you're not frivolous with this relationship or foolishly scattering your energy around, there is no reason to repress your feelings or pretend that an amazing alchemical occurrence isn't in the works.

Blocks & Inhibitions: Three of Cups

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POSITIONAL (MAIN) MEANING
Is it possible that you think you won't receive the love and support you need?

The card in the Blocks position points to self-undermining tendencies, areas where you could be in denial, where you could get stuck -- unless you examine yourself and make some corrections.

When the Three of Cups falls in this position, a part of you doesn't believe that you can attract the kind of love you offer to another. Is it possible that you have a double standard you are holding against yourself? You wish to be seen as a person who cares about others and takes care of them, remaining open to the ebb and flow of the needs in your relationship. But what about receiving?

For some reason, you may not expect or ever ask to be taken care of in return. When you come up short after having poured out much love and energy to a partner, ask yourself why you tend to starve yourself. Once you understand that, you can put a stop to this self-undoing tendency. True love requires a two-way circuit of giving and receiving.

Allies: Seven of Pentacles

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POSITIONAL (MAIN) MEANING
Listen to your mentors, so their experience and wisdom can guide you in your endeavor or special relationship.

The card in the Allies position points to people who can be supportive or helpful to you at this time.

In this position, the Seven of Coins implies the presence of experienced people who understand your situation and can give you advice on what to do next. Listen so you can begin your progress from the highest point their shared experience and wisdom can take you.

This is what evolution and progress are all about. You are blessed with great human resources around you, and they are positively disposed toward you, happy to share their accumulated experience. Seek these people out. Perhaps by helping them on their projects you will earn the right to have their help on yours. Be gracious to friendly resources that are available to you.

Advice: The Emperor

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POSITIONAL (MAIN) MEANING
Draw upon the capable inner resources you possess to get the task completed.

The card in the Advice position suggests a course of action which will harmonize what you want with what is currently possible.

When the Emperor is in this position, get in touch with your inner sovereignty and natural self-possession. Realize that somewhere deep inside you is the memory of royalty. Reach within to find that strain of natural nobility and leadership. These innate qualities will help you manage your current situation.

The Emperor suggests that you have the necessary abilities to be the final authority. This situation is an opportunity to showcase your competence and skill. Act with the confidence of someone who knows how to take care of business.

Long-term Potential: Knight of Swords

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POSITIONAL (MAIN) MEANING
You can direct the situation without controlling it. Be creative and flexible.

The card in the Long-term Potential position points to unknowns still taking shape. It is the "wild card" yet to be played.

With the Knight of Swords (in some decks, a Prince) in this position, change is afoot; no longer drifting with the currents, you are assertively directing the flow. Although we often wait until things happen to us, the Knight of Swords likes to be the prime mover in a situation.

If you are respectful of natural timing, the innate enthusiasm of this horseman can facilitate change. Nevertheless, be careful not to try to control the outcome. You will serve the situation best by being receptive, so the finest ideas have a chance to emerge. Avoid second-guessing what the highest and best outcome should look like. The best this horseman has to offer is creative intellect combined with mental resilience.

Am I Ready?

Today at work I said good morning to one of my co-workers.  She works in the cafeteria.  I was getting the children's sheets from the dryer and once I was heading off I told her to have a good weekend.  She said the same to me plus to go have fun.  "You're so young, you should go dancing and have a boyfriend."  I kind of smiled at her and said "We'll see."  What's so funny is that she is not alone.  There are a few people that I know who wonder if I will be in a relationship.  My excuse to them is that I don't have time for one because I'm committed to my studies.  I've been working in the mornings and going to school at night.  Now that summer is here I really don't have any excuses.  But on the other hand I'm not sure what I want.  Do I want to continue being single and have fun with my friends or be with a good guy?

I think the reason why I stayed away from relationships is because... well yeah 1) I was sick  2) I was trying to get better  3) Getting my life on track and 4) I've seen some relationships that weren't at their best.  I've notice that I made alot of excuses to stay away and I never really gave relationships a chance.  I think I was scared at what will happen if I was in a long-term relationship.  Honestly when I'm ready that's when a relationship will happen.  Relationship will gradually come and when that moment is here I know I will be ok.

The other day my brother and I were talking and he said most likely I will be with someone who's weak.  I thought that was sad.  He said, "I see you as the dominated person in the relationship and the guy as the lower status."  For references I perfer someone who's equal to me.  Who can handle my family, lol j/k.  I have a big family and if the guy is cool with that, then that's fine.  Of course I'm daddy's little girl, but I'm also his only girl so....lol.  Actually my dad knows that I'm a strong person and I won't be guilable to what guys say plus I grew up with brothers so I always had to defend for myself.  They are also football and baseball fans.  And as you can see I like to watch wrestling, I still watch it every now and then.  I think it would be cool if I'm with someone who's similar to me.  Someone who's mix like me I'm native-spanish-italian with english/irish from my father's side of the family.  We're very different and a handful at times but they are my family and they supported me through alot.  They were there when I couldn't breathe, they were there when I couldn't walk, they were there when I was weak.  They gave me strength so I could live... maybe the reason why I never ended up in a relationship is because I want them to be proud of me.  I want them to know they kept me strong so I can succeed in life.  It's probably a bit corny but it's true.

I'm tired

If I put any opinion up on my myspace blog, certain people would have a problem with it!  Mostly it's family because they don't want no one to know what's going on with me or situations that are occurring.  Since they feel that way I am going to write them all here!!!

Dealing with rent issues:  First of all unfortunately my landlord is planning to raise the rent another $100.  If it's not paid by the 5th an extra $75 will be included, if not recieved by the 10th an $150 extra.  Of course this upsetted quite a few of us.  They gave us a contract to sign there are other things he stated in the contract that isn't accurate.  Here's a brief info on the house in July 2005 we moved into our house.  The house was in terrible shape.  The deal was 4br and 2 bath.  We came into a 3 br, 1 extra room and 1 bath.  The backyard look like a jungle.  The kitchen was was in poor shape and the bathroom needed a makeover.  My mom's room was okay looking but the central air and heater does not work on her side, it appears that something is blocking it to reach on her side.  In others words when the whether is hot her room is hotter - when it's cold (yes you guess it) her room is chilling.  My brother's room is alittle bit better the only thing that is wrong is his closet door.  My room... well I think mine was the worst one.  The carpet had a very fowl odor and mold on the wall.  The closet needed to be clean and definitely a new paint job.  Well we were the one's that painted the place and fix pretty much everything - when family and friends came to see how it look before they were in shock that we paid rent in the first place.  We clean the mold in the bathroom and my room.  Painted every single room, fix anything or everything and yet now that in July 2007 it's going to be two years in the house and it's not completed!!!

My side shelves have yet to be fix and painted, the top storage area in my room has yet to be clean and painted.  The inside of my closet was the only part that got painted and the walls.  They installed a borrow fan that was in my brother's room and put it in my room.  We added a new medicine cabinate and painted the bathroom, they redid the bathroom later on.  Mind you we were at times without a bathroom.  When they were getting the kitchen fix we were months without one.  You know what we were like a year until it was somewhat done.  They still need to put those fans - to let the smoke out from the stove.  We have the window open everytime we cook.  Some of the outlet plugs is not really covered, you know with a cover to prevent anything to go in or come out.  The extra room my other brother is living in there.  It's just a room and nothing else.  We had to fix the room after our roommates moved out!!!  They too left a mess in there!  We cleaned, painted, fix the floor and my dad had to work the electrical wiring.  Oh and I should mention there are two control boxes for the house.  Plus every now and then the power will go off and one of us would have to go outside to retored the power again.  My landlord are responsible with the water bill.  One day I was taking a shower - to get ready for work!  Right when I was going to rinse my hair ---- THE WATER TURNED OFF!!!!!!  With my hair still wet with shampoo I had no choice but to go get some water bottles and large cups of drinking water to try and rinse my hair in the sink.  Mind you it was on of the coldest days and I was using cold water.  I was so upset I almost ran late to work because of it!  They didn't get the water bill in time so that was the reason the water shutted off on me.  And I am quite sure I never heard an apology from them.

With all of this matter of increased rent and incomplete tasks it has definitely brought tention to the family.  We are constantly fighting and insulting one another.  And sad to say it truly made me come to a decision that I do not want to continue living with them and prefer to live on my own with my kitty.  I think it is best that they find a place that is more convient for them and vice versea with myself.  I know they will not agree with my decision but now it's time to put my best interest first.  I do not plan to live with my family forever I hope they can accept that I'm better off on my own then with them.

All I Want For Christmas...

Is a miracle

I don't want my family to worry where they are going to live in 10 months or all of our financial stuff as well.  I don't want people I care about to be sick or be in constant pain.  I want to help but being me I can only do so much.  I want everyone to be happy and not sad.  Strong and not scared, knowing that everything is going to be alright.  I don't want people to be mad at one another or alone during the holiday season.  I just want everyone to know how happy they can be, how much people love them and truly care for them.  I don't want people to believe one thing and not hear the truth from another.  I want people to stop making enemies and start being friends.  Even to those who were friends before to make up and connect the friendship once again.  To people who could find love and hope to look at their eyes only to see more love from within.

I want my family to be alright.  I want everyone to be alright, even if it means I don't find my prince... if I have to loose that so this miracle can come true then I will give that dream up so others can have theirs.

This is what I want for Christmas - others to be happy more than for myself.

Anita

Last Friday...

I wrote this poem last Friday.  I was going through some things mostly cause of situations that are hard to handle.  After writing this it gave me the confidence I needed to pick myself back up again.  I reasured myself that things will get better... and you know what, it did.  Thanks to my angel